Day Twenty-five and Twenty-Six

Day Twenty-Five

So I did not do a work-out, because it is the day off of working out, but I did go to the gym and did 20 minutes of cardio. That was about it for yesterday. had some veggies and pork loin for dinner. Nothing special.

Day Twenty-Six

Woke up, tired and wanted to sleep but still went to the gym. The first person I see when I walk in is the one person I really dis like in this town. When I first started at Dak, I was excited to move to a new place and make new friends. This woman made that impossible for me, and caused me to hate coming to work. Amanda..... I will not say last names but this woman was rude, snotty, and thought her shit was too good for you. Yeah, she was nice at first, but then she alienated me. Soon, everyone in my team ignored me or didn't pay attention to me, or would treat me like crap. Eventually, I just hated coming to work, to work with those people, but loved my actual job. I was the black sheep of my group because I was a rocker girl, I liked punk rock, black and was opinionated. Well she left 2 years ago in April.... I went to her going away parting, only to celebrate that I didn't have to work with her anymore and get free drinks from her LOL.... evil I know :)

But yeah, so I saw her, and I truthfully think she knows I dislike her a lot.... she saw me, smiled and said "Hi Ashley" and kept walking. She also said bye as I was leaving. Its not like when you normally see someone outside of work, you are like "HEY you are not at work!" and you chat a bit.... there was none of that. I said a soft spoken Hi and Bye back to her, hoping my mind didn't hear me say it, and think I betrayed it HAHAH.... kidding... but yeah...

So the workout was good, did my machine routine, and did cardio for 25 minutes.

About to go eat breakfast :)

Ashley

Day Twenty to Twenty-Four

I really slacked in writing my blog... I am sorry. Here is an update for the past few days.

Twenty

Was saturday, and did my weekly gentle streach yoga. Also did my work out one so I can start an actual work out plan and follow. It went good, learned a few good tips. However, it is a fully body workout, so I can only work out every other day. Then I played Wii most of the day, Rachel and I kick ass at Mario Cart :D

Twenty-one

Was a whole lot of nothing. Our arms were so sore from the Wii and my working out, that Rachel and I just went to Sioux Falls, ate at Coco Palace, I had some Unagi, fried steam dumplings, miso soup, and Tia Curry. I am such a heifer when it comes to good Japanese cuisine. Spent the rest of the day watching Flash dance and relaxing.

Twenty-two

Monday, I didn't do much. I did my workout, however I did not do cardio, due to I didn't feel to well in the tummy. So I did the machines and that was it. Nothing interesting to report for the rest of the day.

Twenty-three

Yesterday did nothing. I played about an hrs worth of Wii Tennis, broke a sweat and then watched part of 300 with Rachel and Billy. Then went to bed.

Twenty-four

Did my workout again today. This time I did do the cardio for about 20 mins. Tomorrow I think I may just do cardio at least.

Well that is is, I hope to keep up with this much better.

Ash

Day Eighteen and Nineteen

Day Eighteen...

I slept in, I was so tired by the end of Wednesday that yesterday I wanted to sleep, so I did. So no workout or anything. Came home washed dishes, and watched TV and then went to bed.

Day Nineteen...

I did go to the gym today, did legs and got on the treadmill for about 20 mins. Then got on the EFX machine for 5 more. So I did well I think. Tomorrow is Gentle Stretch Yoga and then I do my workout one with a professional so they can get me on the right track. I hope by January I will have dropped at least one to two pant sizes and at least 15 lbs. (Gaining muscle mass) so I can't expect to loose to much :)

Breakfast was two eggs, two slices of toast and few strips of Bacon. I love my protein :)

Have a good day
Ashley

Day Sixteen and Seventeen

Day Sixteen

So I didn't blog yesterday. Mainly because I woke up at 5am went to the gym at 5:30 came home and showered and went to work an hr early. Had to do this so I could go to the Dentist yesterday afternoon.

I am starting to work on getting my teeth fixed. Has been an issue with myself for a good 15 years. Most who know me, I don't have nice teeth. Mainly caused by genetics of my parents and a bad Child Dentist. It will cost lots of money, not sure how I will pay for it all, but I will have it done eventually.

Day Seventeen

Went to workout my normal time today. Did arms and cardio and I am extremely tired, but I am not letting it stop me.

I am changing my life around dramatically in the next several months. Working out to achieve the body I once had, and get the beautiful smile I dream of daily. Lots of self esteem issues, but eventually they will be all taken care of, and I can love myself again fully :)

Well that's it for today, going to shower and get to work.

Tootles
Ashley

Day Fourteen and Fifteen

Day Fourteen:

wasn't much of anything really. Just lazed around watched TV, Watch Harry Potter and the Sorcerer Stone. My aunt then called me around 3pm left me a VM "Grandma and Pa are in town, they want to take you to Apple bee's for dinner, call me back if you like to go" So I called and said sure after Seeing if Rachael wanted to go, since we were suppose to make Spinach Lasagna. So went to dinner and got to see my adorable Grandma and Pa :) They are such jokers I love them to death, I also love when they buy me dinner too HAHAHAH. Came home, and watched Pirate of the Caribbean: Worlds End. Then went to bed around 10pm :)

Day Fifteen:

So far today was just working out. I worked out upper body, and did 20 mins of cardio. Came home and now just relaxing, about to eat some breakfast. After some thinking, I am going to see about my one for one that comes with my membership, and see how that works for me. If it doesn't I am going to see what the Gym charges for a Personal Trainer. If it isn't too much, I may try that, so I can be in the best shape ever, and do things right.

I been working out for two weeks. Last Saturday I measured myself, should have at the beginning, however, in just a weeks time, I lost a few inches all over. Which makes me very happy. I am not sure on the weight, but I am more worried about inches then anything.

Well that's if for the day. :) Tootles!

Ash

Day Thirteen

Lots to talk about today :) Last night met up with Josh and Christene at the Nine at Nine. They didn't stay long, both weren't feeling the greatest :/ but Rachael and I stayed. In about one hr I downed 3 Slow Comfortable Screws which are amazingly good! Sloe Gin, Southern Comfort, Vodka and OJ. I sware I am highly addicted to these things thanks to Josh :) We then went to the liquor store and bought some SoCo, Coke and Bud and drank more. Picked up Billy and drank some more, while billy drank his Hamm's Beer. It was a mellow night, for the most part, bit of stress for Rachael, but I hope I took care of it for her :)

Then I woke up around 8:30 still a tad drunk I think, but its ok. Then went to the gym this morning for Gentle Stretch Yoga, was nice and relaxing. Came home, had breakfast, two eggs with onions and tomatoes, two slices of toast and two slices of bacon. Topped off with a nice glass of Apple Juice.

I feel ready to go, and do something today, but I have no clean clothes. I have laundry to do, and maybe clean house a bit today, though it isn't bad at all.

Well that is it for today.

Tootles,
Ashley

Day Twelve

So another day of working out. Today was legs, and cardio. I didn't go as long as yesterday because my tummy was a little off this morning. But I went for close to 15/20 mins. I am tired, hot and sweaty. I can't wait until tomorrow, I have gental stretch Yoga at 9:30 and the rest of the day is mine :D

Well that's all I have today....

Ashley

Day Eleven

So today, did my super workout, well sort of. I did my arms, took about 20 mins. Then I got on the EFX machine to do cardio. I got on that beast for 28 mins, and burned 313 cal. I busted ass. I was dripping sweat and I loved it, but hated it. It was on my back and between my boobs, and I couldn't go take a towel I had and wipe, so I could only wipe my face LOL. Oh well, it was awesome.

However, you hear some of the most interesting things in a woman's locker room. So I was in there prior to workout, and two girls walked in. I was getting my shoes and my MP3 player set up and Girl 1 was like "I over slept and missed cycle class, because I stayed up late." Girl 2 "I have to stay up late because I am literally on my last pair of underwear." Really? Why discuss something about your dirty and clean underwear in front of a perfect stranger? I find that odd hahaha. But oh well.

Well, time to get showered and ready for work.

Tootles!
Ash

Day Nine and Ten

So, I didn't write yesterday, but I will write about yesterday and today.

Day Nine
I didn't get up and work out. Only because I had to be at work by 8am for a Tech Meeting. It was nice to actually sleep in. I awoke at around 7:15am and left by 7:45. I really hate having such short times to get ready, but I guess my body wanted to sleep in.

I did however have an interesting evening. I wrote a letter to an ex about two wks ago, basically stating to him I hate him, and I hate myself for hating him so much and that I wanted some answers, of why he treated me the way he did.

Well, I got my reply email. To be honest, I was half expecting him to bash me, and say mean and hurtful things to me. It is true, I really thought he would have. However, it was the complete opposite. He apologized for everything and that he never meant for me to be hurt. He also complimented me in more ways then I am willing to share. Anyways, so I replied back thanking him for answering me best he could, told him after this, we shall never talk again, or purposely run into each other when I am back home. I also wish him luck in what ever he does.

So I am happy. I got my closure, and I feel happy. For the first time in awhile I feel confident enough and happy enough to go out there more, maybe put myself on the line and my feelings in hopes of finding another person to be with. *shrugs* who knows :)

Day Ten
I worked out YES! I know I actually felt really lazy for not working out yesterday. I am getting so use to working out, that I don't feel the same as I do when I work out. My day yesterday seemed a little off, like I was missing something.

So today, did legs, and abs and some cardio. We got there about 15 after 6. Woke up late, and Josh had to text me. So I did the normal leg and ab workout, however, my cardio was only 10 mins. I now have a morning routine, so I have to try an get it back in sync before I get off track.

Right now, I am eating Honey Nut Cheerios and a glass of Apple Juice, and it is very good :)

Well, I must end the post. Tonight I am going to a Live Band at Skinner's tonight. I hope they are good and not country music. I need some good ol' Punk Rock, Heavy Metal, or Rock!

Tootles
Ash

Day Eight

Gym again! Did some arms and abs, then go on the EFX machine and was on that about 30 mins. Not really much to write about. I wrote some things yesterday, but that was pretty much it. I slept pretty good last night. I didn't have a cold botherin me or keeping me up.

Tonight, not sure what I have planned. Don't really know of anything to do hehehe. I may just laze around after cooking dinner. I think I may make chicken and rice or something. I have lots of chicken breats :)

Well, thats it for now. Will write more tomorrow. But tomorrow I don't go to gym, I work at 8am so I won't have enough time....

Ash

Day Seven

So, today is the day to have a break from the gym. I am a bit behind or ummm *looks around* Late in writing this blog. Anyways, Had a very interesting weekend. As you know what I did in the AM on Saturday. The remainder of the day was fun.

So, first I went with Rachael to a Rug bee game for SDSU. It actually was SUPER fun. I don't understand the sport yet, but I actually may try to understand it more. Its like football but not wimpy. They really get the shit kicked out of them. They have no pads or anything, and no breaks, it just continues to go..... and there is lots of blood and people getting hurt. It was fun.

OMG and then.... there was this guy. He was a red head. Now I know its mean of me to blog about this, but I can't help it. He was a tall guy. I mean tall, and ripped and buff. However, he was the most hairiest guy I had ever seen in my life. It was like facial hair, on his shoulders down his ENTIRE BACK! It was so gross, it was like the fuzzy part of Velcro. I know, I feel bad, and I am a bad person for this, but seriously, he needed to WAX. If his hair wasn't a light red. I feel really bad for him, and any girl who thinks he is super hot, until they feel his back in the dark.... *cringes*

Ok On ward sorry... *hangs head in shame* Anyways, Rachael had a friend come to town to go to the bar and meet up with some other friends. It was lots of fun. I had several drinks, and was dancing around like a nut head, and playing pool poorly. Though, I did get a few good shots in, with some good coaching of Rachael and her friend. I kept hitting the queue ball way to hard, and would miss shots. But hey, it didn't matter, we were betting pillows HAHAHA.

So yes, it was a good weekend. I had lots of fun. Today was sort of a lay around and do nothing day. Watched a couple of movies, and that's about it.

Tomorrow is 5:30am wake up for gym. Then to work again for 5 days, and to another weekend of going out to the bars.

Well watch for my next post :)

Ash

Day Six

Last Night, well was interesting. I went to "Fame" the new remake of the 80's Musical. It was good, I was so scared it was going to be like "High School Musical" but it wasn't, it was very similar to the original. I still prefer the original, but this was good.

So today was not waking up 5:30am and working out for an hour. Today, I woke up on my own around 7am. I laid in bed snuggling up to my dog, and loving her. She is always so spunky in the morning. She knows when I am waking up. She gets up, stretches, and pounces towards my face to lick it to death. Then she rolls around and squiggles and squirms under my hand that is petting her. She truly is a remarkable dog :)

Anyways, I finally get out of my warm soft bed, in the the cold crisp air. I really would have liked to slept in longer, but I couldn't sleep any longer. So I took the muffin out to potty, then ate a bowl of shredded wheat. Talked with Rachael. Started some laundry. It was now, about 8:30. So I still had some time before my plans.

So I ended up measuring my body, and Rachael's. Now, I am not sharing those numbers, but I will keep you posted weekly on the amount of inches I loose. So, about time for me to leave, and I see a text message from Josh about not coming with me, because he didn't want to open up the book store late. He did get permission from his boss for that to be ok, but he still didn't feel right opening late due to our plans. So, I do understand. I would have liked him with, but its ok. I still love you JOSH!

Anyways, so I go to "Gentle Stretch Yogo" it is 30 minutes of stretching, and relaxing. After working my ass off in the gym this past week, and quiting smoking, I really needed this. I have never really done Yoga before, with an instructor. I wouldn't count those DVD workouts as the Real Thing. But this was nice. I will be working out every morning besides every other Tuesday. Go to Yoga Saturday morning, and have Sunday off.

I am feeling very empowered right now. I have this whole week. I will not let myself become lazy and stop anything. I have goals, and I will keep to those goals and work hard for them.

Oh, and yet again, smoke free :)

Day Five

So I must start this out with yesterday evening. So I have been smoke free for 2 days, 3 if I count today. Well yesterday I ate Shredded Wheat for breakfast, Minestrone soup for lunch, a small bag of chips and some deli turkey meat. Dinner, around 7:30ish, 1/2 Chicken Breast, with veggies and two slices of bread and a glass of milk. So overall I think I ate very well yesterday. Lunch today will be the left over chicken and veggies :)

Anyways, yesterday after dinner, I went with Rachael to meet up with a friend for a drink. Now, after 8pm I can not eat or drink anything besides water. I am taking Calorad, which is liquid protein each night before bed. When taking this, you can't eat 3 hrs before you go to bed. So I figure around 11ish is when I go to bed. So I go to the bar, Rachael and her friend Big have a few drinks. I order water lol.... I never had been in a bar and drank only water HAHAHA. We then went to the 9 (a bar in town) and met with some other friends of Big's. Well while we were sitting there, EVERYONE was smoking!!! It was floating in my face. I was so tempted to ask for a smoke, but I didn't. I waved my hand to keep the smoke from shifting towards me.

SO huge thing, I haven't been smoke free for long and I was in a bar and didn't touch a smoke. I am very proud of myself, and I feel as if, I can accomplish that, I cam accomplish anything I set my mind to.

Now for today, we went to the gym, Josh and I. We worked out our legs, abs a bit, and then cardio for about 20 mins. I am not feeling as sick as I was the past two days, so I was able to get on cardio longer and not feel like my chest had 1000 needles jabbing it :)

So far so good. Tonight I go see the movie Fame with Josh and about 2o other girls LOL then Saturday morning, josh and I go to Gentle Stretch Yoga, to stretch the muscles we have been working out so hard this week. I think we may do that every Saturday after a long hard workout.

Well that be it for today. *Flex* I am keeping my will power alive and strong! I will do this :)

Ashley

Day Four

I worked out again today. Even though my nose is stuff, chest is congested, however my throat doesn't hurt no more LOL. My body aches but from working out. Besides the illness, I feel pretty good about myself. This is day two of no smoke in the morning. So yesterday, was a whole day with nothing, and I feel good.

There are moments I crave. Like on my drive to/from work, and after eating food. I think the biggest test will be, when I go out drinking. I always smoke like a chimney when out drinking. When I did smoke I can least say I wasn't average when I smoked. I smoke 1/2 a pack or less a day. The average person smokes a pack to pack 1/2 a day. So I may have had a unhealthy habit, but at least I wasn't as bad as most.

Right now, I could use a smoke, but I think I rather talk about the craving, then ignore it and not talk about it. It generally is best when you talk about things, the tend to be easier to overcome? Maybe.

Well back to my work out. Josh bought a 2 month pass, to work out with me before he runs away and leaves me for the Navy. Not sure what I will do without my best guy friend around. Makes me sad thinking about it, but HEY it gives me 1 WHOLE hour 4 or 5 times a week of just him and I. So it makes me happy at least :) Something to add to the topping of working out and getting fit. We worked arms today. Lower and upper back, and cardio. I would have gone longer on cardio, but with this cold, I couldn't go more then 10 mins. My chest was burning something fierce. Once I am feeling better, I am sure I can go my normal 30 mins cardio :)

Well that's it for today. Hope you enjoyed reading about my work out adventures.

Tootles,
Ashley

Day Three - Part Two

So again, no work out :( But I am sick I have a reason. Met up with Josh and Kristene about our steampunk costumes.... This is going to be so much fun.... I can not wait to do this!

Will be waking up early for gym tomorrow!!! Wish me and my sick butt luck

Day Three - Part One

No workout. I need a day to let my body rest. I am getting sick, my throat hurts, I have a chest cough, and my nose is draining into my throat. I feel like crap. I know its not the FLU, but I really don't want to work today. However, I have no choice, it isn't going to kill me to work.

Going to work out tomorrow, wish me luck :)

Ashley

Day Two

So today is my 2nd day of my workout. I woke a bit late today. I awoke at 5am to tinkle, and figured "Rachael will wake me in 30 mins" so I went back to sleep. I was not fully asleep and then I received a txt message from my Josh. "Where u at?" I flew out of bed as it was 2 after 6. Rachael didn't wake me up, she actually didn't even get up to go to the gym today. She was to tired. So anyways....

I ate some left over corn bread for breakfast, took my pills (Ephedrine and Burn) Don't worry, I know the FDA Banned ephedrine, but only banned from diet pills. You can still take it separate so you can monitor the amount. People were taking 500mg and were having heart attacks. I take 25 to 50mg. So not even close to hurting me.

I then got in my workout clothes, grabbed my shoes, and my water bottle and head out the door to pick up my JOSH! He went the the gym with me today. I worked out my arms and tummy mostly yesterday, so today Josh and I worked out our legs. I got on the elliptical for only 10 mins today. The weather is cold and humid and is causing me to have chest breathing pains from a chest cold that started about mid day yesterday. So I had to take it semi easy today. But all in all I burned about 100 calories from the elliptical, maybe 200 from lifting weights???? Not sure and then my burn and ephedrine burned about an extra 100 to 200. So not to bad I guess. I am happy I am doing this. It makes me feel very good about myself.

Tomorrow I feel I make take a break, or just do the elliptical tomorrow and give my legs and arms a rest. Saturday I plan on making an appointment with a trainer (I get one free with my membership) so I can get a weekly work out plan made and just follow that.

The No Smoking.... Well I have 2 smokes left of this pack. After that, I am completely done! No more ever again. I really do hate it. I want to be healthy, and look healthy. So basically while I am getting ready for work, I will be working on smoking one, and on my way to work I will smoke my last one. I will bring a book I am reading to work to read on my breaks, since I won't have smokes.

Well, I must end this for now. I need to get showered (Sweat and stink is never appealing) To night I will be measuring my body, so I can track the inches I loose. Weight, doesn't matter, its the inches that count. But I want to loose the weight or get back to my size 7/9 jeans.

Tootles
Ash

Day One

So, me and a few friends have possibly decided on what to go as for Halloween this year. We are dressing up as Steam punk. It is going to be extremely fun, and creative.

Below is the idea I am going for. Josh he is going to be an Airship Captian. I am going as a gun slinger.And not sure what others are going as.

So anyways, For me to pull this off, I need to loose some weight and quit smoking. Loosing weight is not only for myself, and overall health, but just to feel good about myself and be comfortable in my body.

Quiting smoking, now that's a who different realm. I know its bad for me, its a bad habit. It makes my skin icky, and makes me smell, and kills my body. I had josh smell my hair one day, because it smelt so nice to me. He said "Mmmm with a hint of smoke" yeah sort of sad and made me not feel so good. LOVE YOU JOSH! lol but yeah, made me realize, no guy would want to be with me who smells like smoke and goodness.

So I woke up at 6am, which never happens LOL and I went to the gym today. I pumped weights with my arms, lower back, legs and tummy for about 30 mins. I then hopped on the elliptical for about 15 mins.

So my starting weight is.... and I cant believe I am sharing this is, 190. Now I have big boobs. Believe it or not, they are a DD. So in reality, that is about hmmm 15 to 20 lbs of boob. I do not look fat, as my dad says "You carry your weight well" but 5 years ago, I was about 140/130. So my goal for now is to Quit Smoking, and loose about 25 lbs. Once I get down to 165, I will see how I feel about myself and the overall look of me. Then I may strive for another 25 to 30 lbs. Then I will just continue to go to gym, eat healthy and just work in maintaining my weight.

Wish me luck, and help keep me motivated.

Ashley

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The Perfect Online Game

I was around 20 years old when I started to play Online Games. Six years now of playing MMO's. How it all started is, my brother got SWG (Star Wars Galaxies Online) I was making fun of him, "You are such a nerd!" well it wasn't because he was playing an Online Game, it is because he really is obsessed with Star Wars.. Honestly, at that point I really didn't know online games existed, or what they ment. So he told me, and showed me the Character creation. I fell inlove with online games.

I played SWG for about a year or so. I love it. I lost alot of friends, but made SO many all around the world. I would spend hours and hours playing this game. Truthfully, I even RP (Roll Played) but not to the weird extent, but had little SWG Boyfriends, some fought over me, or tried to win my affection. It was rather fun. I had three accounts active in SWG and that was about $45 a month I paid. One was my PVP girl and I mass murdered people with a group of close IMPERIAL Friends :) Yes I was on the naughty side. One was my shop girl (a friend left and let me use her character) she created clothes, sold them to various players, and I had some super hot out fits, that no one else ever thought of, until they saw me running around in them. My other, was my support, she danced in the cantina, racked in tons of money, while buffing my PVP Crew.

Then it all ended. My perfect world, away from reality. WoW came into existance, and everyone soon flocked to WoW. Now don't get me wrong, WoW had some great qualities, but it wasn't want I wanted. It wasn't even close, but all my friends went there, I almost had no choice but to go and follow them. Then soon, SWG did a huge Revamp and the game was distroyed, and was never and will never be the same.

So, many years and countless hours playing a game I really truely did not love or like. I was there only because everyone I knew was there. I tried several other games. Some only for the trial, while others I played beta, or bought the full game, thinking "This might just be the one for me, I might have found the home I had lost!"

Well, I still have not found my Perfect Online Game. I almost wish I could work for a computer game company, tell them how to make the game, what it needs, and BOOM! It would be perfect. I would take parts and things of various games I found and tried, and enjoyed for a time.

Here is my Perfect Game. If someone ends up creating this, I will assume you took all my Ideas and I will sue you! (Just kidding)

Ok some things I would love in my game, or in my world:

Amazing, Breath-taking Graphics - These graphics come from, Age of Conan. This game, has blown me out of my shoes with the amazing graphics. The water is so real, it could be still, and you take your character into the water, and it ripples as you swim. The shading, and lighting is so realistic.

Character Creation - Now I am a girl, I love to make my girl SUPER hot, with big boobs, a tiny waist, perfect skin, and a face that is completely custom, that the chance of someone getting a face like yours is almost impossible. A face that can be remembered, like it could in real life. Age of conan, yes has great character creation with the body, and yes even has nudity. However, they did have an ok rating with the facial features, but most all look the same. If the game could be where you could change everything, the make up, the hair lenght, like Sims but 100x more.

Those are my top two, and I will ad more, but it is time for me to hit the sack. I have so much more to add to this, but you will have to wait.

Vixen