Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Day Nine and Ten

So, I didn't write yesterday, but I will write about yesterday and today.

Day Nine
I didn't get up and work out. Only because I had to be at work by 8am for a Tech Meeting. It was nice to actually sleep in. I awoke at around 7:15am and left by 7:45. I really hate having such short times to get ready, but I guess my body wanted to sleep in.

I did however have an interesting evening. I wrote a letter to an ex about two wks ago, basically stating to him I hate him, and I hate myself for hating him so much and that I wanted some answers, of why he treated me the way he did.

Well, I got my reply email. To be honest, I was half expecting him to bash me, and say mean and hurtful things to me. It is true, I really thought he would have. However, it was the complete opposite. He apologized for everything and that he never meant for me to be hurt. He also complimented me in more ways then I am willing to share. Anyways, so I replied back thanking him for answering me best he could, told him after this, we shall never talk again, or purposely run into each other when I am back home. I also wish him luck in what ever he does.

So I am happy. I got my closure, and I feel happy. For the first time in awhile I feel confident enough and happy enough to go out there more, maybe put myself on the line and my feelings in hopes of finding another person to be with. *shrugs* who knows :)

Day Ten
I worked out YES! I know I actually felt really lazy for not working out yesterday. I am getting so use to working out, that I don't feel the same as I do when I work out. My day yesterday seemed a little off, like I was missing something.

So today, did legs, and abs and some cardio. We got there about 15 after 6. Woke up late, and Josh had to text me. So I did the normal leg and ab workout, however, my cardio was only 10 mins. I now have a morning routine, so I have to try an get it back in sync before I get off track.

Right now, I am eating Honey Nut Cheerios and a glass of Apple Juice, and it is very good :)

Well, I must end the post. Tonight I am going to a Live Band at Skinner's tonight. I hope they are good and not country music. I need some good ol' Punk Rock, Heavy Metal, or Rock!

Tootles
Ash

Monday, September 28, 2009

Day Eight

Gym again! Did some arms and abs, then go on the EFX machine and was on that about 30 mins. Not really much to write about. I wrote some things yesterday, but that was pretty much it. I slept pretty good last night. I didn't have a cold botherin me or keeping me up.

Tonight, not sure what I have planned. Don't really know of anything to do hehehe. I may just laze around after cooking dinner. I think I may make chicken and rice or something. I have lots of chicken breats :)

Well, thats it for now. Will write more tomorrow. But tomorrow I don't go to gym, I work at 8am so I won't have enough time....

Ash

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Day Seven

So, today is the day to have a break from the gym. I am a bit behind or ummm *looks around* Late in writing this blog. Anyways, Had a very interesting weekend. As you know what I did in the AM on Saturday. The remainder of the day was fun.

So, first I went with Rachael to a Rug bee game for SDSU. It actually was SUPER fun. I don't understand the sport yet, but I actually may try to understand it more. Its like football but not wimpy. They really get the shit kicked out of them. They have no pads or anything, and no breaks, it just continues to go..... and there is lots of blood and people getting hurt. It was fun.

OMG and then.... there was this guy. He was a red head. Now I know its mean of me to blog about this, but I can't help it. He was a tall guy. I mean tall, and ripped and buff. However, he was the most hairiest guy I had ever seen in my life. It was like facial hair, on his shoulders down his ENTIRE BACK! It was so gross, it was like the fuzzy part of Velcro. I know, I feel bad, and I am a bad person for this, but seriously, he needed to WAX. If his hair wasn't a light red. I feel really bad for him, and any girl who thinks he is super hot, until they feel his back in the dark.... *cringes*

Ok On ward sorry... *hangs head in shame* Anyways, Rachael had a friend come to town to go to the bar and meet up with some other friends. It was lots of fun. I had several drinks, and was dancing around like a nut head, and playing pool poorly. Though, I did get a few good shots in, with some good coaching of Rachael and her friend. I kept hitting the queue ball way to hard, and would miss shots. But hey, it didn't matter, we were betting pillows HAHAHA.

So yes, it was a good weekend. I had lots of fun. Today was sort of a lay around and do nothing day. Watched a couple of movies, and that's about it.

Tomorrow is 5:30am wake up for gym. Then to work again for 5 days, and to another weekend of going out to the bars.

Well watch for my next post :)

Ash

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Day Six

Last Night, well was interesting. I went to "Fame" the new remake of the 80's Musical. It was good, I was so scared it was going to be like "High School Musical" but it wasn't, it was very similar to the original. I still prefer the original, but this was good.

So today was not waking up 5:30am and working out for an hour. Today, I woke up on my own around 7am. I laid in bed snuggling up to my dog, and loving her. She is always so spunky in the morning. She knows when I am waking up. She gets up, stretches, and pounces towards my face to lick it to death. Then she rolls around and squiggles and squirms under my hand that is petting her. She truly is a remarkable dog :)

Anyways, I finally get out of my warm soft bed, in the the cold crisp air. I really would have liked to slept in longer, but I couldn't sleep any longer. So I took the muffin out to potty, then ate a bowl of shredded wheat. Talked with Rachael. Started some laundry. It was now, about 8:30. So I still had some time before my plans.

So I ended up measuring my body, and Rachael's. Now, I am not sharing those numbers, but I will keep you posted weekly on the amount of inches I loose. So, about time for me to leave, and I see a text message from Josh about not coming with me, because he didn't want to open up the book store late. He did get permission from his boss for that to be ok, but he still didn't feel right opening late due to our plans. So, I do understand. I would have liked him with, but its ok. I still love you JOSH!

Anyways, so I go to "Gentle Stretch Yogo" it is 30 minutes of stretching, and relaxing. After working my ass off in the gym this past week, and quiting smoking, I really needed this. I have never really done Yoga before, with an instructor. I wouldn't count those DVD workouts as the Real Thing. But this was nice. I will be working out every morning besides every other Tuesday. Go to Yoga Saturday morning, and have Sunday off.

I am feeling very empowered right now. I have this whole week. I will not let myself become lazy and stop anything. I have goals, and I will keep to those goals and work hard for them.

Oh, and yet again, smoke free :)

Friday, September 25, 2009

Day Five

So I must start this out with yesterday evening. So I have been smoke free for 2 days, 3 if I count today. Well yesterday I ate Shredded Wheat for breakfast, Minestrone soup for lunch, a small bag of chips and some deli turkey meat. Dinner, around 7:30ish, 1/2 Chicken Breast, with veggies and two slices of bread and a glass of milk. So overall I think I ate very well yesterday. Lunch today will be the left over chicken and veggies :)

Anyways, yesterday after dinner, I went with Rachael to meet up with a friend for a drink. Now, after 8pm I can not eat or drink anything besides water. I am taking Calorad, which is liquid protein each night before bed. When taking this, you can't eat 3 hrs before you go to bed. So I figure around 11ish is when I go to bed. So I go to the bar, Rachael and her friend Big have a few drinks. I order water lol.... I never had been in a bar and drank only water HAHAHA. We then went to the 9 (a bar in town) and met with some other friends of Big's. Well while we were sitting there, EVERYONE was smoking!!! It was floating in my face. I was so tempted to ask for a smoke, but I didn't. I waved my hand to keep the smoke from shifting towards me.

SO huge thing, I haven't been smoke free for long and I was in a bar and didn't touch a smoke. I am very proud of myself, and I feel as if, I can accomplish that, I cam accomplish anything I set my mind to.

Now for today, we went to the gym, Josh and I. We worked out our legs, abs a bit, and then cardio for about 20 mins. I am not feeling as sick as I was the past two days, so I was able to get on cardio longer and not feel like my chest had 1000 needles jabbing it :)

So far so good. Tonight I go see the movie Fame with Josh and about 2o other girls LOL then Saturday morning, josh and I go to Gentle Stretch Yoga, to stretch the muscles we have been working out so hard this week. I think we may do that every Saturday after a long hard workout.

Well that be it for today. *Flex* I am keeping my will power alive and strong! I will do this :)

Ashley

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Day Four

I worked out again today. Even though my nose is stuff, chest is congested, however my throat doesn't hurt no more LOL. My body aches but from working out. Besides the illness, I feel pretty good about myself. This is day two of no smoke in the morning. So yesterday, was a whole day with nothing, and I feel good.

There are moments I crave. Like on my drive to/from work, and after eating food. I think the biggest test will be, when I go out drinking. I always smoke like a chimney when out drinking. When I did smoke I can least say I wasn't average when I smoked. I smoke 1/2 a pack or less a day. The average person smokes a pack to pack 1/2 a day. So I may have had a unhealthy habit, but at least I wasn't as bad as most.

Right now, I could use a smoke, but I think I rather talk about the craving, then ignore it and not talk about it. It generally is best when you talk about things, the tend to be easier to overcome? Maybe.

Well back to my work out. Josh bought a 2 month pass, to work out with me before he runs away and leaves me for the Navy. Not sure what I will do without my best guy friend around. Makes me sad thinking about it, but HEY it gives me 1 WHOLE hour 4 or 5 times a week of just him and I. So it makes me happy at least :) Something to add to the topping of working out and getting fit. We worked arms today. Lower and upper back, and cardio. I would have gone longer on cardio, but with this cold, I couldn't go more then 10 mins. My chest was burning something fierce. Once I am feeling better, I am sure I can go my normal 30 mins cardio :)

Well that's it for today. Hope you enjoyed reading about my work out adventures.

Tootles,
Ashley

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Day Three - Part Two

So again, no work out :( But I am sick I have a reason. Met up with Josh and Kristene about our steampunk costumes.... This is going to be so much fun.... I can not wait to do this!

Will be waking up early for gym tomorrow!!! Wish me and my sick butt luck

Day Three - Part One

No workout. I need a day to let my body rest. I am getting sick, my throat hurts, I have a chest cough, and my nose is draining into my throat. I feel like crap. I know its not the FLU, but I really don't want to work today. However, I have no choice, it isn't going to kill me to work.

Going to work out tomorrow, wish me luck :)

Ashley

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Day Two

So today is my 2nd day of my workout. I woke a bit late today. I awoke at 5am to tinkle, and figured "Rachael will wake me in 30 mins" so I went back to sleep. I was not fully asleep and then I received a txt message from my Josh. "Where u at?" I flew out of bed as it was 2 after 6. Rachael didn't wake me up, she actually didn't even get up to go to the gym today. She was to tired. So anyways....

I ate some left over corn bread for breakfast, took my pills (Ephedrine and Burn) Don't worry, I know the FDA Banned ephedrine, but only banned from diet pills. You can still take it separate so you can monitor the amount. People were taking 500mg and were having heart attacks. I take 25 to 50mg. So not even close to hurting me.

I then got in my workout clothes, grabbed my shoes, and my water bottle and head out the door to pick up my JOSH! He went the the gym with me today. I worked out my arms and tummy mostly yesterday, so today Josh and I worked out our legs. I got on the elliptical for only 10 mins today. The weather is cold and humid and is causing me to have chest breathing pains from a chest cold that started about mid day yesterday. So I had to take it semi easy today. But all in all I burned about 100 calories from the elliptical, maybe 200 from lifting weights???? Not sure and then my burn and ephedrine burned about an extra 100 to 200. So not to bad I guess. I am happy I am doing this. It makes me feel very good about myself.

Tomorrow I feel I make take a break, or just do the elliptical tomorrow and give my legs and arms a rest. Saturday I plan on making an appointment with a trainer (I get one free with my membership) so I can get a weekly work out plan made and just follow that.

The No Smoking.... Well I have 2 smokes left of this pack. After that, I am completely done! No more ever again. I really do hate it. I want to be healthy, and look healthy. So basically while I am getting ready for work, I will be working on smoking one, and on my way to work I will smoke my last one. I will bring a book I am reading to work to read on my breaks, since I won't have smokes.

Well, I must end this for now. I need to get showered (Sweat and stink is never appealing) To night I will be measuring my body, so I can track the inches I loose. Weight, doesn't matter, its the inches that count. But I want to loose the weight or get back to my size 7/9 jeans.

Tootles
Ash

Monday, September 21, 2009

Day One

So, me and a few friends have possibly decided on what to go as for Halloween this year. We are dressing up as Steam punk. It is going to be extremely fun, and creative.

Below is the idea I am going for. Josh he is going to be an Airship Captian. I am going as a gun slinger.And not sure what others are going as. Steampunk 1

So anyways, For me to pull this off, I need to loose some weight and quit smoking. Loosing weight is not only for myself, and overall health, but just to feel good about myself and be comfortable in my body.

Quiting smoking, now that's a who different realm. I know its bad for me, its a bad habit. It makes my skin icky, and makes me smell, and kills my body. I had josh smell my hair one day, because it smelt so nice to me. He said "Mmmm with a hint of smoke" yeah sort of sad and made me not feel so good. LOVE YOU JOSH! lol but yeah, made me realize, no guy would want to be with me who smells like smoke and goodness.

So I woke up at 6am, which never happens LOL and I went to the gym today. I pumped weights with my arms, lower back, legs and tummy for about 30 mins. I then hopped on the elliptical for about 15 mins.

So my starting weight is.... and I cant believe I am sharing this is, 190. Now I have big boobs. Believe it or not, they are a DD. So in reality, that is about hmmm 15 to 20 lbs of boob. I do not look fat, as my dad says "You carry your weight well" but 5 years ago, I was about 140/130. So my goal for now is to Quit Smoking, and loose about 25 lbs. Once I get down to 165, I will see how I feel about myself and the overall look of me. Then I may strive for another 25 to 30 lbs. Then I will just continue to go to gym, eat healthy and just work in maintaining my weight.

Wish me luck, and help keep me motivated.

Ashley